wish i am brave
enough to follow the desires of my heart.
that way, life
would have been easier, like how things may happen naturally and spontaneously.
but i am not. things between us have changed. and i should have left them
all behind, to start with a clean slate this year.
time must not have been on my side. i never knew we'd see each other again. the
whole of last year was a blur and i thought writing you off would end things
over.
but no. i was mistaken. and here you come again getting in the way of my
recovery. i have promised myself i won't cave in. but with all the strength i
have mustered to keep you at bay, away enough from this tender heart, it all
went back to the same. that feelings i fought off which mostly kept us together
is back with the same degree of tenderness in me. and i hate it.
wish i could finally close the door on you and move on. wish this year, things
will be different. i haven't been brave enough to admit my feelings to you.
wish i could have told you i want you back in my life, that i have waited for
you though i had been wishing you won't come back 'nymore.
wish i could turn away and forget i met you along the way.
wish i could but i couldn't. one thing i ask. just move on. go away and never
come back 'cause i might be with someone else, but my heart is still with
you just the same.
i'm missing you,fei. wish i could stay the same, but i couldn't stand the
distance anymore. it kills me being away from you.
wish i could. but i am not brave enough to follow my heart.
